I give up

Quick note: I hate when I have feelings I'm not aware of--- especially because I am wasting my time with someone else's feelings. I don't explore my own at that time, and then forget to do it. As a consequence, the feeling festers and begins to have side effects. When I finally become aware of it, I wonder how I could possibly bring it up without hearing, "You're still thinking about that?", or, "You should have told me you were feeling that way". Yeah. That's right. Either I'll be made fun of, or it'll become all about how the other person was slighted when I didn't speak up. What the fuck ever.