Left hanging

ask a question
tell you later
not the deal
not a fair thing
not patient
no focus

distracted to the point of distraction
doubts creep in
thoughts rear their ugly heads
and I cower in the fetal position
helpless powerless spineless

I fear me
and I attack
ruthlessly
against my soul

Crying for a hero
the hero is me
the enemy is me
which way to turn

feel gold glisten
against my skin
I am armed
I am ready
two halves
now whole

undefeatable
indestructible
unbreakable

once joined
cannot be undone
cannot be brought down
gladiator spirit blessed

I did right
there can be no doubt
I held up my end
now to wait and see
now to wait and see...